Monday, January 7, 2013
Besides this blog challenge, I’ve got a lot of balls in the air for this year, and it feels good to have things on my plate.
You see, I love my job. I get satisfaction out of it almost hourly. There’s no corporate job I’ve ever had that I can say that about. I’m extremely fortunate. No matter how rough some days get watching a 4-month-old, 2.5-year-old and a 5-year-old, at the end of it all, I don’t need someone to tell me I’ve done a good job. I don’t need a performance review to tell me that I’m good at it, I can see it in the children. Even tonight, after a shitty day (not work related) and feeling sorta blue, Leah, comes running over before her bath, completely unprompted and on her own and ran into my arms and said, “I love my Traci”. And that my friends is worth any commission check I’ve walked away from. Any quarterly bonus. Any business trip and definitely any corporate conference.
THAT, from a 2.5-year-old, is true, raw, honest love and I am so lucky to have that in my life, much less as part of my job that I get paid for.
But similar to many a SAHM, sometimes it’s lonely. It’s a lot of spending time without other adults around and without a lot of variety. Most days are the same. Routine, that’s what children/babies need and well, It can be lonely at times not having co-workers (although, when I hear co-worker stories from friends or think back to the jobs I’ve had in my past, I am grateful for being co-worker free!). But as I’ve said the pay off is well worth it in the end.
So I decided having been working here for the past 5 years I know what is expected of me, I know what kind of “free” time I have and I decided to commit myself to several projects to keep my mind busy, my heart open and my thoughts positive. Something that isn’t so easy for me to do sometimes. So far, I’ve found something out of each day, no matter how rough it’s been, to be grateful for.
I feel like this is a little repetitive, but I’m working on this blog first and foremost. Both under the Blog Challenge/Dare and on the creativity and what am I going to eventually use this blog for. Or my writing for rather. I have so many stories in my head and I have so many funny yet ironic stories stuck in my head there isn’t a day that goes by that someone doesn’t say, “you really should write a book” or “you really should write a script”, and I agree, I just don’t know where I’d begin! How do you put 37 years of wackodoodleness onto paper?!?! 😉
I have my jar across the room, and every day, I’ve found something to be grateful for. I’m determined to become healthier mentally and emotionally in 2013 and I want to be someone (again) who can see the glass as half full. I want to be that girl who believes in Fairy Tales again. I want to be able to believe in happy endings. And I don’t know that one thing will lead to another, but, being forced to rethink my day each night, makes me appreciate things that in the past would happen and they’d never be thought of again. This year I’m going to have documentation. I’m going to be able to go on a dark day and read through all the positivity, all the little things that I let slip by before.
And my favorite one of all, is that I’ve decided to take a page out of the Ross Geller book of resolutions and try to do something new every day of the year! Not quite AS extreme as he was, but, I’m quirky. It doesn’t take much to find things! I mean, for goodness sakes, last week I failed on day 3 on NOT making my bed. I know people who don’t make their beds EVER, yet apparently for me, it’s a spontaneous reaction! So far, most have been funny or minor. At some point I’m sure I will blog about it for everyone’s enjoyment!
So that’s my busy year!! I work almost 60 hours/week and these 3 projects and I feel like I have a full, well-rounded plate. There may be some other stuff that pops up later this year…….you just never know. 😉
Here’s to a productive 2013!! ~traci xox