Independence Day…..no, not that kind of post. It’s only the 3rd.

The Martina McBride’s song Independence Day has always been a favorite of mine, and then embarrassingly enough, a year ago, I finally REALLY heard the words. I heard a version by “Little Big Town” (see above) and after hearing it a zillion times before, this time I really heard the words and realized it was echoing some of what I’d lived through. At that moment I crumbled to the floor and cried that ugly cry for all those that don’t escape like I did. For those children that live in homes like this and can’t get out. My heart breaks for them. I can’t listen to this song by any artist without breaking down. It makes me grateful. Grateful for surviving. Grateful for the will to escape.

I don’t want to make this about me, but, it’s only fair to bring up why it’s so close to home. For those that don’t know I am a survivor. The victim of domestic abuse and rape by the hands of a man I loved. I spent 5 years with a man I loved, but who only loved me because he could control me. I finally got out, and have grown immensely in the 8 years since I’ve moved out, but it will always be a part of who I am. I watch these videos and listen to the lyrics to remember how lucky I am, and how many are out there not as lucky as I am. I hope someday to be able to work and help others who are going through what I went through and feel like they have nowhere to turn.

In the meantime, I hope I can spread awareness. If someone you love is in a relationship you think could be abusive, DON’T PUSH THEM AWAY. Do whatever you can to keep them close to you and keep them feeling un-judged. When you’re being abused you’re embarrassed. You are ashamed. And you stay because of those things. I never thought this would happen to me, and when I look back and I still can’t believe I let myself go through what I did. But, it made me who I am today. It gave me independence. It gave me strength and it showed me that I could count on me to survive. ~ traci xoxo

For those not familiar with the song, or like, me, who never realized what the lyrics really were about, here thye are:

Well she seemed all right by dawn’s early light

Though she looked a little worried and weak

She tried to pretend he wasn’t drinkin’ again But daddy left the proof on her cheek I was only eight years old that summer

And I always seemed to be in the way

So I took myself down to the fair in town On Independence Day
Well word gets a round in a small, small town

They said he was a dangerous man Mama was proud and she stood her ground But she knew she was on the losin’ end

Some folks whispered and some folks talked But everybody looked the other way And when time ran out there was no one about On Independence Day
Let Freedom ring, let the white dove sing Let the whole world know that today is a Day of reckoning

Let the weak be strong, let the right be wrong

Roll the stone away, Let the guilty pay, It’s Independence Day
Well she lit up the sky that fourth of July By the time that the firemen come

Now I ain’t sayin’ it’s right or it’s wrong but maybe it’s the only way talk about your revolution…it’s Independence Day

Let Freedom ring,

let the wight dove sing

Let the whole world know that today is a Day of reckoning

Let the weak be strong, let the right be wrong

Roll the stone away,

Let the guilty pay……..It’s Independence Day

Roll the stone away It’s Independence Day

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